His Will

While in the thick of my disease, I knew, deep down inside, that I could never know happiness and peace until I let go and surrendered to God’s will.  There came a point, in my exhaustion, that I said, “Just tell me what you want.  I’ll do anything. I’ll become a missionary in Zimbabwe if that’s what it takes to have peace. Just tell me and I’ll do it.”

The answer came, “There’s just one thing I want you to do right now.”

     “Name it.”  I said.

  “Turn around.”

  “That’s it?”

  “That’s it.”

I slowly turned and faced Him.

     

  “Now,” He said, “I want you to stop drinking.”

I was reluctant. “First I stop drinking, then I have to give up cigarettes and cussing. I know where this is headed... you want to turn me into an altar boy!”

   "I’m not asking you to do any of those things.  If you want to live in my will, we have to focus on what you need to do today. We’ll worry about tomorrow when we get there.”

   “No, God! I’m ready now! Let’s get to it!”

   “We will. But right now, you need to put down the bottle.”

     

I wanted everything now. I had to learn that things happen in God’s time… and he has ALL the time in the world.