Hello...? God?

"WHERE IS GOD?"  I was a year sober and still waiting for Him to deliver on his end of the deal.

I cornered my sponsor outside the AA hall and demanded answers, "Where is God?  When am I going to get what's coming to me?  I've done everything He's asked me to do.  I've quit drinking, I've cleaned up my act, I did a 90/90 (90 meetings in 90 days), I've taken commitments, I'm being of service, I've worked through the Steps, I've gone back to school, I've made amends to everyone I wronged, I go to five meetings a week, I've checked every box on the list!  So why am I still struggling?  Why am I broke? Why isn't my career taking off?  Why am I still alone? When is God going to deliver on His end and fulfill his promises?"

I rocked on my heels, chest heaving and face flushed, awaiting a reasonable response to God's short-comings.

My sponsor studied the ground at his feet.  After a moment, he looked up at me and grinned, "I think you misunderstand how this works.  You were created by God to serve him, not for him to serve you."

He took a drag off his cigarette and walked away.

I stopped complaining.